Prayer

Please pray for my brother Matthew right now and all of those who are grieving the loss of Craig Vanderveen and his cousin. They both were killed in a car accident just outside of Manitoba. Please prayer for healing for the families and friends involved. Craig was my brothers roomate and great friend at college. Thanks...

My Heart Lies Somewhere Else

I'm pretty sure that I live in the wrong country and continent for that matter. Kimmer, the girl from Virginia that I lived with in Zambia has gone back to Zambia a couple days ago for 3 months. I have overcome with jealousy and longing to go back.

It's hard to have someone that you grew so close with and spent every waking moment with go back and do everything that you did together, but with a different person. I feel so selfish.

It makes it even harder that a year ago I was packing my bags to come home here and now I wish I was packing them to go back there. I hate the fact that I'm in school and don't have the freedom to jump on a plane and go. If only it was that easy. I am happier when I am in Zambia living everyday to the full with new adventures every corner. That is where I long to be. Zambia is where my heart lies.

I know that I will be back there one day, now is just not the time for me. God has other things planned for my life and I have to embrace those. Its hard, but I have to do it.

Now that my eyes are red and puffy, I have to go to volleyball. Maybe I will drive to the airport instead....