It's hard to have someone that you grew so close with and spent every waking moment with go back and do everything that you did together, but with a different person. I feel so selfish.
It makes it even harder that a year ago I was packing my bags to come home here and now I wish I was packing them to go back there. I hate the fact that I'm in school and don't have the freedom to jump on a plane and go. If only it was that easy. I am happier when I am in Zambia living everyday to the full with new adventures every corner. That is where I long to be. Zambia is where my heart lies.
I know that I will be back there one day, now is just not the time for me. God has other things planned for my life and I have to embrace those. Its hard, but I have to do it.
Now that my eyes are red and puffy, I have to go to volleyball. Maybe I will drive to the airport instead....
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The girl I went to Kenya with went back last summer and I felt the same way! I love that second picture, what a cutie. I think its great that you know you'll be back there and that's where you want to be...something to look forward to.
Thanks for your honesty lynn. I know the feeling of wanting to be somewhere else than where you are. It most definitely makes it harder when the person you went with is now going without you. Keep pressing on and find joy in the life you live now while looking forward to the future...you will be there one day. Take care Lynn,
I know what you mean. 4 of my friends are going back to New Zealand to staff the upcoming school this week. I thought I was getting used to being home until I realized that I would give anything to be back there again. Keep you in my prayers, know its hard.
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